Control........

Well, it has been a while since I blogged, so I should probably catch you up!!
On Monday, Aug 15th, I started the amazing Earn That Body program with Kim!!
Stats.....

 

There it is......My before pics!!  I know , scary!!  And to me, really sad and disappointing as well!!  The worst shape of my life!!  Ughhh, makes me want to cry every time I see the pictures!!

Rest of stats.....

Starting weight....240.9 lbs

Goal weight...........190 lbs

Chest....47"

Waist..44"

Hips...46

R Thigh..28 1/2

R Upper Arm..16"

R Calf..17 1/2

Neck..15 1/2

Ohhhhhhh, The Sad Truth!!

But since starting on Monday the 15th, I have not strayed from the program at all.  And I feel like I have sooo much more energy, I'm full all the time and I love my food.  I wonder every time I eat, why haven't I always eaten this way??

My husband must love all the new flavors and not the same old boring, fattening food I normally cook!!

And my workouts, I actually did a run workout, made it thru it, and I am afraid for Kim to find out, but ......I liked it!!! 

Today was, what I thought, was going to be the hardest day of my first week.  But it wasn't :) !!  It was easy....I just brought my cooler, filled with whole, clean food!!

I also brought a huge jug of water. (I love water, hence my nick name as a child was "Thirsty")

I didn't give the cake and cupcakes a thought.  I must admit, I did think about the yummy cookies my cousin makes!!  But quickly remembered what some of my ETB Sisters reminded me of this morning...."The taste only lasts a few seconds, but the guilt and the yuckkky feeling after lasts much longer!!    So it was easy to walk away.  

BUT THEN............................THE PINATA....................UGHHHHHH!!  

So this is how it went down..........

Brody is the first to get a whack at the brightly colored Clown Pinata!! And whack it he did!!  As the other kids abused this poor clown that was stuffed with tons of chocolate, caramel, peanut butter, hard candy, crispies, and all my other favorites...sorry, started day dreaming............

Brody and I went to sit with my cousin Anthony, who was in charge of the up, down pinata.  He reached into his secret stash and put a huge hand full of candy in Brody's brown bag!!!   Then when the poor clowns head was decapitated, there was candy everywhere.  And Brody was right in the thick if it to fill his brown bag to the top!! 

Brody had a few of his M&M's.  I was fine. 
But then we left, got in the car and were on our way to our next stop.........
Brody's brown bag is sitting in the center console of my car.  I looked down to my right, and there it is.......Sugar Satan!!  A whole bag of it!!  And I can smell all of SS's sweet aroma!!  (Sugar is my favorite, I used to eat a candy bar everyday!)  And this is the conversation that happened between the bag and me....

The Bag: C'mon Annalise, just open the bag

Me: No, I am doing so good!!

The Bag: No one will know

Me: Kim could be watching me right now, NO!!

The Bag: She is thousands of miles away in Texas

Me: She will know!!!

The Bag: Mmmmmmm, yummy Chocolate, Creamy caramel, crunchy nuts...You know you want some.

Me: I know I want some really bad!!

The Bag: Then just do it!!  

Me: No, I am strong, I can do this

The Bag: No you aren't, you are weak, that is what has gotten you into this situation in the first place!!

Me: You're right, me being weak, IS what got me into this situation in the first place!!  So NO THANK YOU!!  I am strong, worth a life of health and self confidence, so again, NO THANK YOU!!  And by the way, who cares if Kim knows.....I will know!!

And when we arrived at Lucas' school to pick him up, I took out two small bags of M&M's to let the boys eat after dinner as a treat, and had Brody give his brown bag of "Sugar Satan" to the teachers at Lucas' school.  

I was free, proud and felt like doing a flex session right there in Lucas' school.  I was so proud of myself.  I wanted to call someone to tell them, but no one I know could really understand the internal fight and torment I just survived.  

Changes are really happening!  And they feel sooo good!!