Anxiety!!
So today was a typical day....soccer with my son this morning, relaxing Saturday afternoon, trip to Trader Joe's, home for dinner, fun at the park with the family........and then cookies and milk for my husband and the boys!!
So at Trader Joe's, I put the Joe Joe's Cookies in the cart while saying to myself......I can control myself, I know I shouldn't be eating these, I only have 2 weeks left of the get fit challenge, Sean and the boys will eat them!!
I prepare the boys plates with a few cookies, and their milk, sit them down and then I sit on the couch. "I can do this, I can do this!!" Yes, that is what I am saying to myself....and the whole time I am shifting back and forth in my seat, crossing and uncrossing my legs, now I am sweating.....no really, I am sweating!!
Finally I have to get up and go in the other room!! I felt like I was having an anxiety attack!! I was so uncomfortable...it was awful. I couldn't even enjoy some time with my family.
I came into my office and just cried!! I felt so out of control!! And so confused as to why I feel that way!!
Yesterday we had a baby shower at our Stroller Strides class. So naturally there was a cake. I was fine. Then I walked over and saw the box, and there was a blob of frosting!! I shouldn't, but I did!! WHY?? I don't know. Where is my control?? Why can't I just say no??\
Needless to say, I now know what it feels like to be an addict!! I want nothing more then to just stop and I can't!!
It sucks!!!
Love and No Sugar,
Annalise
The Day in the Life of a Sugar Addict!!
Yes, a sugar addict!! It has been 9 months since my last post. And it was out of embarrassment that I haven't posted!!
I did amazing on Earn that Body with the amazing Kim Straussman!! And when it was over, I gained back 10 of my lost lbs!! And I got depressed and gave up for a while!!
I know how to eat right, I know how to exercise...I know that to be healthy and fit, it is.....80% Food, 10% Exercise and 10% genetics.....And yet I still manage to do great, give up, give in and make excuses!!
I have said it in the past, that I am a sugar addict, but I always thought that was an excuse!!! Well, I have paid so much attention to when I struggle and when I fail and I now know it is not an excuse.....I am a True Sugar Addict!! And I don't believe anyone that says there is no such thing!
The more I read about it, the more I read about how it is just as addictive as cocaine......only more readily available and LEGAL!!
I thought I would start documenting my daily struggles of being a sugar addict!! And I would love for you to add comments of your struggles. I know I am not the only one!! But one of the few to admit it!!
I am not writing for pity, or to be consoled, I am just letting you know the struggles of everyday for me!! Feel free to read, comment, admit....
Lots of Love and No Sugar,
Annalise
